Nikki “Nik” Walker
I LOST 40KG
I had a love affair with food, I’ll admit it, it was a bad relationship, at first it would satisfy but eventually it hurt. My parents were desperate for me to be healthy and despaired over the years at my ever increasing size. They offered me weight watchers, trainers, gym memberships… anything in the effort to help. I would yo yo up and down on every diet plan or pill available getting more and more defeated each time. I would lose some weight but that only lasted a short while. I realise now that I only did it to make others or my parents happy. Each time I would gain it all back and then some! I reached my heaviest in my late early 30’s, where I chose to have drastic bariatric surgery, thinking that it would “fix” my problems. Whilst I did lose a lot of weight, I eventually put it back on, and on top of that I had health problems as a result of the surgery. I don’t know what it was that finally made me decide I had to change? I think the turning point was last christmas in London where all of the family came together for Christmas. I should have been happy but I wasn’t. I was devastated by what I looked like and was depressed. I realised I had been depressed for many years.. but not in a way that I couldnt function or hide from others. I hated what I looked like, I watched my daughter stuggle with food and I wanted to lock myself away from friends and family.